FUCKIN' CRAP

LONGING,
FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF,
JEALOUS.

RANTING...

IT SEEMS I ATTRACT THE WRONG PEOPLE AND I NEVER HAVE THE BALLS TO JUST TELL OTHERS I LIKE THEM.
I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP, AND I CHEATED ON HIM WITH ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS, WHO JUST HAPPENS TO BE AN EX-CON.
MY "LOVER" IS GREAT IN BED, BUT I CANT LET HIM BE IN MY LIFE BECAUSE OF HIS BEHAVIOR. WHEN ITS JUST THE 2 OF US, HE'S GENTLE CARING...
OUT IN PUBLIC, HE IS A NICE PERSON, BUT HE'LL FIGHT ANYONE JUST TO FIGHT.
DRUGS, VIOLENCE ALL THAT GOOD STUFF.

I LIKE THE GEEKY/DORKY TYPE, BUT I NEVER ACHIVED THE ABILTY TO FLIRT. I'M INSECURE INSIDE MY HEAD, BUT OUTWARDLY, I DONT SEEM THE WAY.

I DONT FEEL I'M CREATIVE ENOUGH FOR SOME OF THE PEOPLE I LIKE AND THE FACT THAT I HAVE A CHILD MAKES OTHERS UNEASY.

I'M NEVER TO BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY WHEN I'M JUST TALKING TO PEOPLE, AND A LOT DONT GET THAT.

SEX IS ALSO A MAIN DRIVE IN MY LIFE. I MAKE ALOT OF DECSIONS BASED ON HOW OFTEN I CAN GET IT (DUE TO BEING A SEX-ADDICT AND ALL) AND HAVE OFTEN SCARED SOME GUYS AWAY BECAUSE I WANT IT TO MUCH.

I NEED A FUNNY GUY THAT CAN KEEP UP WITH ME, BUT ALSO NOT MIND THAT FACT THAT I DONT HAVE THE FREEDOM TO JUST GO OUT LIKE OTHERS DO.

FUCK...